A chance to act globally

It’s no secret I am ready to leave Boston, Mass. My family is finding it difficult to understand why I would return. One week after high school graduation, I moved to California, and then to New York City, the U.S. Navy and a journalist career that took me through 18 states. I haven't lived in Colorado full-time for 25 years.

But I am homesick – even more so in my 50ish years. I miss my friends, the mountains, weather … But what I miss most is the friendliness of the West.

Boston is a huge city squashed in a small area and it is not known for its human compassion. A 24-year-old woman pushed a 72-year-old woman yesterday who was crowding her and killed her. The senior citizen fell, cracked her head, and died. 

There are between 5-10 shootings every week. Three pre-teen boys were shot while riding their bikes this month!

Oh, you’ll see the happy sports photos but they hide the fact every person there hates the other!

Bostonians do not smile. If I happen to make eye contact and smile there are two responses: 1) WTF??! 2) Complete surprise which usually does prompt a smile.

Neighbors do not talk to each other. There might be some small talk while you’re shoveling snow together - the snowfall has to be about 10 feet for that to happen. But they seem fearful to get close to any one but family. And don’t get me started on the road rage because of traffic Massholes, a name New Englanders gladly embrace. Go figure.

There is an opportunity this Saturday, July 11, at 9 a.m. PT, 12 p.m. ET to join with thousands of people world-wide in a Global Compassion Meditation presented, free, by Deepak Chopra.

You can sign up here: https://chopracentermeditation.com/gm?utm_source=Campaign&utm_medium=Email&utm_campaign=Global%20Meditation&utm_content=Registrant%20Email%20150710

The Compassion Meditation unites all participants with ‘one common intention: To turn around the rising tide of disconnection in the world and, through renewed empathy and love, reconnect to what truly matters’: Humans, animals, all inhabitants of this Planet Earth!

I plan to participate in the global community and hope you all have time to do so. The future of our existence is in peril.  (No guilt there. Lol)

Wish my rapist was called out

Despite sleeping through the night Tuesday for the first time since mid-April due to pain, (thanks to new meds!) I am again plagued with nightmares of my rape, still unacknowledged by the U.S. Navy. I never thought I would be triggered by America’s Favorite Father Bill Crosby!

I was waiting (into my second hour) for my MRI at the VA Hospital in West Roxbury, Mass., and the news of Cosby, again being silent on the rape accusations of 40 women, came on the TV in the waiting room. All of a sudden, I became very emotional.  Tears started flowing to my embarrassment.

As part of my treatment which I am now being denied through continued one-on-one therapy by the famed Boston VA, I let those tears flow during my MRI. I tried the process of getting through my feelings, but was having trouble.

After the MRI, I sought help, from no less than 11 people, to find out where the area (Boston) Vet Center was located. (That’s where the head of VA Mental Help recommended I go for psychiatric help now, which btw are not federally funded and have no psychiatrist on staff. It also costs me $19 and seven transfers from bus to subway to bus to get there. And nearly all Vet Centers are filled with 1) Men, and 2) Men who are still on the streets, not great for a survivor of MST!)

I went to the chapel and cried some more. Finally I went to the West Rox Mental Health Department for help. That took another three people and they called my psychiatrist. As it is 10 hours later, I don’t think she will call back any time soon to help!  Frustrating to say the least! I called the crisis line to reach out and feel better enough to write.

But, I digress into venting … My main problem with the whole Crosby affair are the statements by his counsel while trying to stop the newly released ADMISSION from the lying “role model” from being unsealed.  

Attorney George M. Gowen III reportedly argued “it would be terribly embarrassing for the material to come out,” adding it would be “very hurtful for his family, business associates, friends, and charities as they did not know.”  

So all this hoopla thanks to one man: Judge Eduardo Robreno, who reportedly was “guided by the sense Mr. Cosby had fashioned himself as a moral guide with pronouncements that offered his views on, among other things, child-rearing, family life, education and crime. The stark contrast between Bill Cosby, the public moralist, and Bill Cosby, the subject of serious allegations concerning improper (and perhaps criminal) conduct is a matter as to which The A.P. — and by extension the public — has a significant interest,” the judge wrote in a memorandum issued Monday. BOO YAH!

Tough shit if it is hurtful to his family, friends and business associates! I have no sympathy for them at all. Crosby was getting the ‘Ludes from somewhere!! Someone knew, and kept silent, (ALLOWED) in the past four decades, that he was drugging and raping women!

I often wonder how many other sailors were assaulted by my rapist due to me.

My former therapy friend, who is also triggered by Crosby, said of course we are affected when other women’s cases are being vindicated.

The lying aspect is just close to my heart and life as a victim of Military Sexual Trauma – it has only taken 30 years to get me to a stalled, unable to get a straight answer, Catch-22 state. But at least I am sober!

Do Do the Potty Dance

I was “asked” Monday on Facebook, apparently the only place where real-world people like me hang out: What is one thing you would rid the world of?

There were your expected comments. Racism, hatred, drugs, Rednecks, in-equality all made the list. I had one answer that literally rolled off my tongue: “Poop!” I confidently responded.  I was not meaning to joke about the “often-stinky combination of fiber, dead and live bacteria and other cells, mucus, water and a gel-like substance,” according to everyday health.com, not to go into too much detail.

Anyway, not only is poop the only logical answer, (I did get 15+ likes), it is the ONLY ANSWER!  In the history of the world, (that we know of) poop has caused a lot of problems and continues to do so as people die everyday from dysentery.  Not to mention the embarrassment that poop can force. (See nurses et al.)

At first I suppose, poop helped in fertilizing crops, until some fecal matter was found unworthy of the land, sickening and leveling towns!  (Although llama poop is okay as it reportedly saved the Incan empire.)

And it slides downhill from there – poop is responsible for toppling civilizations, and causing more deaths than anything else. (I really have no scientific back-up for that, but I do remember stories of Roman poop fests, and English plagues.)

Remember a couple years ago, actor Matt Damon was on a crusade and promised not to poop in a toilet until there are no water problems worldwide? Damon said more than 2.5 BILLION people do not have access to toilets, so their poop leads to pollution, disease and death. (See Water.org) 

I wonder how Damon is doing with that pledge, but the most civilized way is not to talk about poop or its societal repercussions! Glad we are civilized – and the “toilet-less” live overseas! Amazing how our bodies know to get rid of waste, but as a community it is still a foul subject! Ha ha ha

Well, lo and behold, on Women’s Healthy Daily website, it goes even further to delve into the problem of poop in the world:  www.womenshealthmag.com/health/gut-mind-connection?cid=NL_WHDD_-_07062015_IsYourPoopEmotionallyDisturbed

Seriously, it’s all organic! lol If we took care of ourselves first, then our fellow human beings, everything would all flow!

(For the ultimate in poop news Monday: Bill Cosby finally admits to drugging women for sex! That took a hell of a long time for “investigative mainstream journalists” to find out what the rest of us Feminists’ already knew: We believed the women! Duh!?)